Best Friends

Hey guys!
Britt came to Canada last week! It was her first time here! We had an amazing time togther..... she reminds me of what a best friend is, how a best friend makes you feel and how a best friend loves. We may be separated by geography but our hearts are always attached. We don't see each other for MONTHS and then we see each other and its like no time has passed. It was so hard to see her leave....but we made a pact to not go more than 12 weeks without seeing each other from here on out. I love Britt with all my heart and i was so happy to get to share her with my family and friends. She was a HUGE HIT!! No surprises there huh?!





Have a great weekend!!


xoxo

~ Cindy ~

Just me talkin...

Hey guys!
How is everyone? i am doing well. I cant sleep...i don't feel tired and feel like i have a lot of things on ma mind. I pretty much work all night shifts so even when i am not working i am up all night or half THE NITE and then nap sporadically here and there, day and night.... doesn't seem normal for me because i use to always go to bed super early a couple years ago. But right now in my life, it works for me, i like it better. Works better for training and less stress on my head! Jus sucks sometimes roaming around the house at odd hours of the night and then trying to sleep during the day when normal people are mowing their lawns and dogs are barking....sleep isn't really meant to be set up on my schedule!! haha If only we could all not work and be rich!!! I do play the lotto sometimes...hey, we all gotta dream! Mom always says if you don't have a ticket you dont have a chance!!

I am dieting and training....in hopes of getting on stage in Tampa. I say "in hopes" on purpose because i have recently adopted the idea of "no pressure." I get extremely frustrated and scared sometimes....this whole getting on a pro stage thing for me is scary. I WILL NOT get on stage if i don't feel i look good enough. Sure i could do it and wrap it up as practice or experience but i really won't be able to bring myself to do that.... but i may say somthing differnt in a few weeks. Dieting always brings out a range of emotions in me and i change my mind consistently. I have had a rough 2 years with yo yo dieting and wanting to compete, not wanting to compete, wanting to quit, and really wanting to shine. I am going to continue to diet and train and hope for the best. I will commit at some point but right now i am too scared to do that. I dont really know what has gotten into me....the fire inside me burns extremely hot at times and other times it almost blows out! Its very hard on the head for me....i have to diet very hard to get my weight down and it is a struggle to stay motivated. its hard to feel SOO hungry most of the time yet lose weight and body fat so slowly. If i could be one of those people who diets with lots of food and limited cardio?!! HAAAA! that would be a dream. Really i hate those people!!! Damn them and their good metabolism!!! But anything worth having you have to work for. Nothing is handed to you and def not in bodybuilding. Every lb i ahve ever lost, i worked for. I want to work for it really, its just a matter of ALWAYS keeping my head on right. Right now i am weighing about 155lbs mid day. I am doing the keto diet with Dave Palumbo helping me. For those who dont know, it is ZERO carbs. ( and very limited fats for me as well) We'll see where it takes me. I won my pro card in 07 using carbs but not very many so i don't think it'll be too different.

It has been beautiful here the last 2 days. Like a summer dream! I love the warm weather. The dogs love it too, they go outside and roam around and they dont wana come in! and they stand in the middle of the road and cars have to stop and get out and yell at them LOL, theyre so bad. I know i should take them out on a leash but i jus have always let them out. They dont listen at all and run the opposite direction of me hahahaha.

Well, i should try to go to bed so i can get up tomorrow and not sleep in too late!

Good nite~

ALL MY LOVE,

CIN

"We learn well and fast when we experience the consequences of what we do—and don't do."

Glamour shots!

I got the Kobe, Roxy and mom and dads dog Sophies photos done.....they're so sweet, here are a few of my favs. Photos were done by Anita Davidson.

Hey Friends!

Hey guys!
I have been busy! I just moved and have been tryin to get things and myself all straigtened away! I LOVEEEEEEE the new place. I just moved across town pretty much but no matter how far you go its always hard packing it all up and unpacking it all. The upstairs is pretty much done. My dad finished the downstairs so now there is a rec room, a bathroom and laundry room and my cardio room! So the house is ALL done now. Having those rooms finished made space for everything! Waiting on the new couch i got to come next week so i can finally watch some tv downstairs! Besides moving, i have also been busy with working and training.

It is finally getting nice out here! Not like shorts kinda weather yet but def just a sweater. I loves it. The dogs and digger love it here too i think. Digger has acquainted himself with the area is back to being his outdoor adventurous self.

My weight is slowly coming down. I always hate the first and last part of leaning down. At first you diet for WEEKS and feel like your getting nowhere and at the end your so over it and just want to eat normal. Well thats how it is for me anyways. Once i start seeing my body chnage i get excited and want to keep getting better. right now i am like how can i still look like this and yet be so hungry??!! it will come, i jus have to be patient, something i am not!!! Ther other thing i am struggling with a bit is wanting to go train! I have to drag my butt there sometimes, i would just rather not go sometimes. But i make myself get in the minmum i got to. Thank god i have cardio at home. I couldnt imgaine being one of those people at the gym 7 days a week! i could not do that!!! I would be so annoyed and sick of the gym! Or maybe im just annoyed due to the lack of carbs? i dunno...haha

Bye for now,

xoxox,

~ Cindy ~

Diet time!

hey guys!
How are you? I am doing good. Had a long, tiring, and fun weekend. All the NS athletes did very well. My girl won the masters, heavyweight and overall! Thats 2 for 2!!! It was a great show but veryyy long. Glad to be back home.
As u guys all heard the Tampa has been revived! So that means i have begun prep. Kinda sucks a bit that i lost 2 weeks that i could have gotten started earlier but i just didnt know we were gonna get this show back. 18 weeks will hopefully be all the time i need to get into shape. That is a LONG time! But gettin into top shape for me can be very tough at times and my body can be very stubborn. I will not let that deter me though and i will just work my best the next 4 months. I gotta use this pro card i was given!

"Be like the bird
That, pausing in her flight
Awhile on boughs too slight,
Feels them give way
Beneath her and yet sings,
Knowing that she hath wings."victor hugo

Have a great week,


xoxo

Cindy

update- better late than never!

Hi guys!
So sorry i have been so bad at not updating my blog. Its actully is easier to write and tell ya whats goign on when i do it more often. When you dont do it much its hard to remember whats goign on and what your thinking!!! I have been busy lately! I was away all week last week in Torornto on training for work. I actually never stayed in toronto before. I went and seen the Dirty Dancing show, it was amazing. I kinda had nosebleed seat but after a while i forget about my neck hurting and just got really into the show. I didnt train for a week. I did cardio but gave my body a lil break from weights as i had been hittin it pretty hard. I always find your body feels good when u get back into it after a lil break. Other than that it is hard to be away from home.....i do enjoy travelling but eating out and sleeping somewhere strange really starts to get to me. Its VERY hard to eat well when your away. I dont know how some of the pros like jay culter do so many guests appearnaces and are constantly on the road and are able to stay in such great shape! I couldnt do it. I need the consistency of home and my own cooking!

This upcoming weekend is the provincial championships. It will be nice to see all the local athletes and see everyone in their best shape. Theres is a few very close friends competing. I have one girl who i have been training the last 6 weeks- she has come SO far from where she started. I think she can win the show! Hopefully the numbers in the womens bodybuilding will not be too low, the numbers seem to keep dwindling as the figure numbers rise. I will be there to present a trophy to the female winner.

From my last post u guys know how disappointed i was in the Tampa show being cancelled- not a great upward move for professional bodybuilding. BUT hopefully things will get better next year and there will be more shows instead of less. Since the tamapa isn't happening, I will be competing at the Atlantic City Pro Sept 9. Finally- i need to get back on stage!!!

I will update yas after the show this weekend

Best of luck to all the NS atlletes,

xoxo

Cindy

Disheartening

hey guys
I want to express my extreme disappointment in the latest IFBB womens news. The Tampa Pro has had to pull the womens pro bodybuilding due to sponsors not coming through with their support. This is extremely disheartening not only to me but to womens bodybuilding and where we stand in this sport and in the publics eye. How can it be that womens bodybuilding cannot get sponsors from companies that promote nutrition, exercise, supplements, etc. the same companies that promote the men and figure. Its a slap in the face that they basically say we are not putting money into "that", that being womens bodybuilding. That leaves PROFESSIONAL bodybuilders with 2 open shows....2??!! If we cannot even get enough support/funds to be INCLUDED in a bodybuilding show that alreday has men competing- where are we to go? what are we to go? Why should we even try to compete? No one wants to see us right?? thats what it seems to be screaming loud and clear to me. Whats the point of womens professional bodybuilding?? i dont get it. Why even bother turn pro, NO ONE wants to even put on a show. Doesn't seem too professional to me. Semms like kind of a joke.
Not only are FBB's not accepted in mainstream society but now we are not accepted amount our fellow male counterparts in competitons. First it was publicity and money we were shafted on, but now they wanna get rid of us all togther.

I know many fbbs do not compete in hopes of fame, publicity or money.....and if they do they will be sadly disappaointed. But i think all of us do want to be recognized for our hard work and discipline the same as the men are when getting ready for a show and getting your body to transform. Taking away competitions takes away that platfrom for us to stand proud of what we have done..... regardless of the return we get, being on stage is our stage to the world to say look at me- i have done what very few people can ever do.

I'm really sad for fbbing....we are being pushed further and further away....
I had planned on competing in Tampa....